If this be my cross

If this be my cross
I bear it with hesitant gladness
But is it a cross
Or my own subtle madness
Let me press into you 
And see if this sadness remains 
Let Adoration be mine
Come crush my lonely pains

Pains of illogical depression 
Oh give me Daily Mass 
Awaken discipline in me 
Let me not drive past
Your house my King 
With a foolish fleeting choice 
Let me enter in 
And there do raise my voice 

My poems get shorter 
The lower I feel 
But fewer words 
Can help others heal 
Not much to say 
Just fall down 
Into unfailing love
O God let me drown

Let the darkness comfort me
Wrap it's pain around me
If my God it's your will 
That others walk free 
Make me a martyr 
Though I'd rather my blood be shed
Than to sit in sorrow 
As my soul is slowly bled

Undone

Let go and trust God

He will save you whole

Give up your very self

Tis Christ's only goal

To see you come to the end

Of all that you are 

Like a drowning man

Who's lost all of his power 

Let Christ be to you

The life saving guard

I know you still want to swim

To stop is very hard

But let go and fall

Into everlasting arms

Give up all your strength 

You won't come to any harm

Christ Christ is the way 

Behold his salvation 

On a cross crucified

Crying it is done

Accomplished all things are

Through the risen Son

Oh give up, give up

Time you were undone

He's got you

He's got you

Don't you know

When all is dark 

And you're lower than low

He's got you 

Beloved one

When you can't see

And you're undone

Even the darkness

Is light to Christ

In his light you'll see

How high you're priced

He's got you

Don't you know 

He sees every tear 

And every woe

He's got you

Relax

Relax, 

Deep breath 

To satans voice 

Be deaf

Hear your Father

Deep call unto deep

He loves you 

No longer weep

Fear not

His arms are around you

Anxiety flee

God's love for you is true 

Darkness despair

God is here

Demons tremble

With eternal fear

Unbelievably believable

It's unbelievably believable

The Holy Catholic truth 

From beginning to end 

It offers absolute proof 

Like a hungry lion released 

From its holy cage 

The lamb kisses all

From age to blessed age

O Holy Catholic truth 

I kiss you too 

Where would earth be now 

Without Holy you

There is nothing on this earth 

Compared to blessed thee 

Oh holy head of the Church 

Never let me be

Heaven's choir sings

Welcome the darkness

With your will

Hide the crucifix

Oh so ill

Ignore the saints

On icons of glory

Hell could be

Your eternal story

Welcome the darkness

That pleasure brings

Sit alone 

The torment sings

The pleasure you chose

For a brief little moment 

Has left you empty

And pitifully dormant

This poem helped me

Choose the light

Pull the blinds

Now all is bright

The joy that 

Holiness brings

Is beyond compare

Heavens choir sings

Coffee or Tea

Coffee or tea

Bagels or toast

Outside fallen leaves

On the roads coast 

Golden brown 

Trees half bare 

Remind me of I

Oh don't stop and stare 

Life is good 

Even with bipolar

I enjoy the good things

As I am made holier

To live with me 

You would think not

But God sees the heart 

And all it has got

Him, him

My heart has Him

Though it loves 

Stupid sin 

Change it God

Inside out

Take away the stone 

Cast it out 

Coffee or tea

The choice is made

Bagel or toast

You've come to my aid

Choice you always 

Us do give

Christ or Satan

Who for will you live